It's almost 4 am here. Can't sleep. It's kind of nice cuz the city is so quiet.
I just spent about 30 minutes reading my emails...from the best people in the world. I don't even know how many I have received, but I am saving them to a folder and want to print them out. People have called too. But yesterday the phone was down so most of their messages came to me on voicemail.
I don't really know what to write but I wanted to write something. I keep thinking about my mom and how glad I am that I got to see her in November and hug her one last time and laugh over memories of dad and life together one last time, and cry with her. I called her a lot these last couple of months and I am so glad for that. I remember Kristen Young telling about her Dom. Rep. trip and how their team used a verse, although which one escapes me right now...but they also used the rallying cry...No regrets...as they worked on their site. I'm glad I told mom how much I love her and I'm glad I saw dad in July before we left the US and I hugged him and we visited and laughed and remembered together. No regrets...but you know, I think I still have some..cuz well, I do. But I think we all do no matter how much we try to dot our i's and cross our t's and do it "right". It's just life. I'm so glad that God knows me and loves me anyway. And He is here...in Abu Dhabi hugging me and holding me up....and He uses His children to do it. My treasured family in the US from Bent Tree and Tres Dias and Kansas, Carrollton.Carlsbad and all over and my new family here in the UAE. And my sweet, sweet husband who knows how to make me laugh even when I am soaking his shirt..and my sweet ,sweet kids who hugged just a bit longer and tighter yesterday...or made me laugh all the way from Austin....
(Let me tell you something folks...if anyone thinks you can do this pilgrimage, this journey, alone...Well, just forget it. Who would want to, anyway? Pride and independence...what a bunch of.... nothing.)
I am so blessed by the most wonderful friends and family........It overwhelms me.
I know I am rambling again....maybe this blogging thing isn't a good idea cuz it will be here for the rest of my life....oh well, who cares? Life is way too short to sweat this stuff....
I miss her ya'll. My mama...Nancy Neal Deahl...born Dec.23, 1931 died Jan. 21, 2008. Funny, kind, obsessively clean,faithful, loving and married for 54 years....I love you, Mom. No regrets.
